Happy February 14th

Tuesday, February 14, 2006

It’s the middle of February. I am not depressed. Quite the contrary. Usually in January or February and in July or August, I am hit with an extreme dark and black depression. I could feel myself spiraling down into its depths but there was nothing I could do about it. But here at Stepping Stones, I have experienced neither my usual late summer nor my late winter gloom.

I think the reason why is my contact with nature. For me, having been raised in the country, I get my spiritual renewal from nature. The awe and wonder I feel being outside surrounded by living things is a constant reminder to me of my part in the scheme of things. And that part I am to play is to be me. The real and true me, not the one who role plays in my life circumstances such as daughter, wife, mother; but the real me which bubbles up much like an underground spring. With few exceptions, and those were attitudinal problems I made for myself by either living in the future which is the more common one or living in the past, I have experienced more happiness, exuberance, joy at being alive and then at times a calm, serene, peace than at any other time in my life. I am whole.

Needless to say, I love Stepping Stones. I am so fortunate to have found a home amidst nature where I can receive the spiritual nourishment I require, which is as necessary to me as the air that I breathe in order to be healthy. I sit here in my chair by the window with the warm sun upon my face and I am joyful. It is good to be alive on this lovely, cold, February morning.