Mold, Mildew and Much More
Sunday, February 26, 2006
I see the sun for the first time in a very long time. It feels so good to have it shining into my study and to feel its warmth upon me.
It feels good upon my face and I feel its healing power upon the mold and mildew that have collected in my mind. When I must stay inside for a very long time because of rain and cold, I, like the trees about me, gather mold and mildew in my brain cells.
In order to entertain those brain cells bored from lack of being engaged in a physical activity, I can conjure up all manner of drama with me in the starring role of course. I make villains out of my neighbors, and victims of my friends while I, the heroine, come to the rescue and save the day.
Such nonsensical thoughts of the mind are a sickness and the sickness grows and spreads much like the mold and mildew on wood. Like the mold, the sickness does not like light or dryness of the sun, but the dark and damp of dreary winter days.
Recently, during a lull in the rain, I took a walk that ended at the pier. I gazed into the water and watched the ripples of the surface. It was very overcast but a trickle of sunlight reflected in one area that I was observing. If I just stared into the water, I could see reflections of the waves beneath the surface and then shadows of those reflections and so on. It gave the eerie illusion that I was looking into infinite depths to which there was no end or bottom. It was an “aha” moment, a moment of clarity, a moment that I had “seen” a glimpse of a world separate from the physical world and with something other than my eyes; so in the present was I.
And so I will let the sunshine into my mind and spirit and let its healing light and power chase out the silly, negative thoughts that a bored mind conjures up to entertain itself when it is not engaged in the positivism of the present moment.
I see the sun for the first time in a very long time. It feels so good to have it shining into my study and to feel its warmth upon me.
It feels good upon my face and I feel its healing power upon the mold and mildew that have collected in my mind. When I must stay inside for a very long time because of rain and cold, I, like the trees about me, gather mold and mildew in my brain cells.
In order to entertain those brain cells bored from lack of being engaged in a physical activity, I can conjure up all manner of drama with me in the starring role of course. I make villains out of my neighbors, and victims of my friends while I, the heroine, come to the rescue and save the day.
Such nonsensical thoughts of the mind are a sickness and the sickness grows and spreads much like the mold and mildew on wood. Like the mold, the sickness does not like light or dryness of the sun, but the dark and damp of dreary winter days.
Recently, during a lull in the rain, I took a walk that ended at the pier. I gazed into the water and watched the ripples of the surface. It was very overcast but a trickle of sunlight reflected in one area that I was observing. If I just stared into the water, I could see reflections of the waves beneath the surface and then shadows of those reflections and so on. It gave the eerie illusion that I was looking into infinite depths to which there was no end or bottom. It was an “aha” moment, a moment of clarity, a moment that I had “seen” a glimpse of a world separate from the physical world and with something other than my eyes; so in the present was I.
And so I will let the sunshine into my mind and spirit and let its healing light and power chase out the silly, negative thoughts that a bored mind conjures up to entertain itself when it is not engaged in the positivism of the present moment.
Dance as though no one is watching you,
Love as though you have
never been hurt before,
Sing as though no one can hear you,
Live as though
heaven is on earth.
posted by Sandra | 10:03 AM
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